So, that has become my mantra for the past couple of weeks. Ugh. I feel totally drained. Emotionally and physically drained. Maybe it really takes a lot of me when I worry too much when there's really supposed to be worried about. Ugh. Yes, that's for the second time. And a lot more of that as this entry comes to a wrap.
The hunt is quite taking its toll on me. It's weird because every time I am so near it, I feel some throbbing somethings. Ugh. Maybe the possibility of separation anxiety. I could not believe it's sinking in this early. Actually ang OA a, for me to feel this way e wala pa nga.
Why does it happen that at some point, I want to back up. Could be that I am half-hearted of the hunt. Uhm, I'd like to think it's normal lang naman to be feeling this way. It's some kind of uncanny feeling. Excited but of course malungkot din because you know, the people I will be leaving behind. Huh. Syempre, the relationships I have already built, it kinda stuck to me na. Yep, could be separation anxiety.
I am in constant prayers, still thinking things over. Weighing the odds and benefits of this possible undertaking.Man, this is hard a. Not that I thought it was easier. But I never thought of it being this excruciating!
I would still like to believe that the best is yet to come.
***fingers crossed.***
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