Loving Changes

And yes, I found home in this new site.

Truly, almost everything about my old site is different from this one. But one thing sticks: me writing my heart out. Yes, still to that effect.

The past days have entirely been cruel to me. I have been feeling under the weather with my swollen tonsils for four days now. Been battling with unkind emotions too, which by the way is really taking its toll, huh.

And for some odd reasons, my little me time brought me to conclusions, unlikely conclusions.

If there were things I am most afraid of, it were surprises. The idea itself, I didn’t like. But I was surprised myself; I was feeling different towards it, I guess towards people and things close to me.

I used to think I was almost always vulnerable. But now I feel some strength. Not that I lack of it before, more like new-found. And I guess I love that change in me. Something I was trying so hard before to attain, I almost gave up failing.

I was thinking there’s change of heart too; with a heavy heart I am saying that. This should be the most trying of trying times we have been to. It’s painfully ugly, I don’t want to amplify. This caught me off guard.

Truly, people change. And feelings do too.

But what’s left to do then, welcome the idea although it swept me away. Surprises bluffed me that bad there’s no other choice but to let things slip in.

And eventually, love them.

I choked saying that, quite unsure of myself too.

But just like this first post on my new site, not because everything is different, anything has changed.