Wanted: Emergency Chocolate

So I'm thinking where to get myself this Emergency Chocolate. Or maybe I should just tap myself to the reality that this is just an aftermath of most recent cravings? I couldn't remember the last time I grabbed a bite. Should be a while.

Today should jump start the weekend ahead. Pero I am feeling kind of tired to do a thing. Tomorrow's laundry day and here's hoping the sun would be shining brightly to my favor.

I am quite exhausted with work stuff. Or maybe all the thinking there was the past few days. Months even. And it hasn't been pretty, mind you. My skin asthma's been taking it's toll at some point I thought I couldn't take it anymore. Should hit the doctor for check up. Maybe an assessment about this stuff. See, that's kind of urgent. All that was running through my head is that this is primarily about the emotional stresses I have been into. Still into. Some kind of a limbo, some anxiety in between. Something I wouldn't entertain but now, uhm, sort of entertaining. Should be a whole lot of things running in my head and a thousand more emotions I couldn't hold up all at the same time.

Maybe I'd be better off asleep.

I am reading on Eat, Pray, Love for the second time now. Funny how unfamiliar it seemed to me. Although the emotions I was into the first time I read it was spelling familiarity now. Couldn't be a good sign.

I was heaping with heavy sighs, yes. Maybe a lot coming from disappointments. About myself, my career. Family life. And the mere fact I am channeling these bad vibes is not a good idea to toss around with. And so I was thinking, what was this pit hole that I allowed myself to slip in. Was kinda dark and ugly. Something I really don't like. Eeeky at some point. You could puke.

I should be on my toes now, I mean try to bounce back. I couldn't be in this hole for so long, I could miss out on the good things GOD will have to provide me.

Sure there's truth when Deepak Chopra said "All great changes are preceded by chaos." Maybe that's why everything's been a mess. A whole lot of mess. Like my thoughts are really a mess. But maybe it's about time to gather myself together and probably get back to my old self. Really uncanny, thinking I go about the every days of my life lately with scattered thoughts and wailing composure. Not a good sight, yes?

Maybe it's about time to get back to my NINJA MODE. Yesss, I have that in my arsenal. Like for real.

And I have this emergency chocolate to fuel me up.

Because when you're feeling this down, there's absolutely no way but up.