Yes. That's a Plumb song that's been lingering for quite a while now.
Something I've been aching to write about, my sort of a motivation.
And I still couldn't believe how I am thinking things afloat again. It feels as if I've been actually stuck in a moment. Painfully refusing to move an inch from it, without anybody requiring me.
I was actually feeling stupid finding myself sinking in. I was sinking in so bad it stinks. And I have been pretty much cautious pa about me having to fall with my face again. I'm jittery. Really jittery, was thinking of bursting into tears. Like right at this moment.
All the while I thought I'm having a good grip on this, only to be so near faltering now. At least I have not completely faltered. My defense mechanism's quite worked up now.
The words are racing and I begin to feel shivers. Something I have tried to avoid a couple of recent instances, failing largely this time.
And I guess I have been completely worked up too. I have gotten myself into loads of emotional juices the past few days and I'm turtle slow coping up. I'm mad but so prone.
Probably a quiet time's what I need. Away from everybody else.
Sometimes it just really sucks being naive.
Like this naive.
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